My first real entry! I'm soooo excited - sorry for any errors!
Just sended my application to my organisation (sorry, didn't want that one to rhyme) - I'm so excited!! And my parents must be very glad. My father said that he doesn't want to hear this word "application" anymore. I have to say "AF" now, so he doesn't get mad.
Well, he doesn't really get mad, but...you get the idea. He declared it the faux-pas word of 2006. That's all you need to know.
You are probably wondering why I decided to do a year abroad in my 11th class. Yeah, I know that most students spend their 11th class in The USA and I'm going to spend my 12th. But does that really matter?
Ok I'm going to try and explain...there are a lot of changes in my family right now - but only good ones for that matter! My oldest sister is planning to study again. She wants to work as a teacher. And I know she can do it! My other sister is just finishing her studies in Munich. She was very succesfull and has great plans and a promising future ahead of her - who knows where she's going to end up? China, Australia, USA? We'll see.
And than there was me. I think this just infected me. Last year I planned to go to Britain or something. But then I got scared. I just wanted to do 5 months so I wouldn't have had to repeat class. But I was scared of not being good enough in school anymore after my return. So I chose not to go.
I'm older now. I don't know if I'm any wiser but I changed a lot over the last year. I'm not the same person I used to be a year ago. Because I lived alone with my sister for almost 10 months. Let's say I learned a bit about life *lol*. I got more independant and I enjoyed it! I think I have a lot more courage than last year.
Last year I just had to focus on me. I had a few problems - not physically but psychically. It's not like I did something to myself (I would never do that!!) but I just wasn't happy. I cried more often and just felt bad. I coulnd't explain it. Berhaps it was because of my parents and school (I didn't have problems but I just didn't feel comfortable) and I thought that my horse was about to die and I lost a very good friend because of a misunderstanding.
But that was more than a year ago. My horse is doing well, I'm getting along with my parents, feel pretty comfy in class and my friend and I are friends again. Life just feels good *lol*. And I'm just more relaxed and don't take things too serious (I'm still serious but sometimes it was just too much!). in the past I tought "Oh my God, what am I gonna do??" now I think "What the H***? I'm going to get trough this!"
So I decided that this year was just what I wanted. I didn't want to stay in Europe because that's where I live. I wanted to get away - far away. A friend of mine is in Italy right now. I like Italy because I visited it nearly every summer for at least 14 years. And that's why I would never go there for my AYP. I know that it's different to stay in a family for 11 months than to go there on holidays, but...you get what I want to say, don't you?
I had to chose between South Africa and the USA. I think I chose the USA because I just found it al little more appealing. Because of all these different regions and because of the immigration there are so many different cultures mixed together.
I just can't wait to get there. I kills me not to know what's ahead of me. But that's what I want and I fought hard for it! Well, I didn't really fight. At leat not literally. But I had just this short amount of time to apply. I had a few months time to apply and other students had more than a whole year! But I managed it. It feels like I managed a huge step in my life and I'm proud of it. Feels like growing up *g*.
And just yesterday I found my "Leitfaden '08" - my guide for the A-level. It's weird if I think of it...in January I was worrying about the classes I wanted to take and only a few weeks later I was applying for a year abroad.
But so far I don't regret my decision. My sister's friend said that his little sister applyed for a year abroad, too, a few years ago. But she canceled it when she was about to fly. She just couldn't board the plane.
I don't think that's going to happen to me, but who knows?? Nah, don't think so. Like I said - I gained a lot more courage over the last few months. Even a good friend of mine said I changed a lot.
So I'm confident that's going to be really great.
Okay, that's it for now!
P.S: If somebody finds any errors, he can keep them *lol*! I'm not perfect and my English is everything but that!